There’s a song that we sing in our churches “Who Am I?” We sing about how God is so great and who are we really? Who are we that God would look down upon us to take note of us. So I ask myself tonight, Who Am I? I feel as if my world is one of loss and pain and hurt. I go through my days feeling like the old Greenday song says “My Shadow’s the only one that walks beside me, My Shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating, Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me, till then I’ll walk alone.” That’s truly how I feel every day. I’m surrounded by people of the same faith. I walk into the classrooms and they are all around me, but I’m alone. I sit down to eat my lunch at a table full of laughter and joy, yet I’m eating at a table by myself. I sing in a choir of 150 voices, but I hear nothing but the cry of my broken heart. How far have I come? Yet how far have I fallen? I believe in my Savior and I believe He ultimately knows what it is that He is doing. I’m not worried about God, I’m worried about me. I’m fallible, He’s not. His will is perfect, I’m the one that limits those possibilities.

Will I ever truly let God have complete control of my life. My history of continuously letting Him yet relinquishing control is getting old to me. I never want to leave His spirit. He’s the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. The problem is that I’m battling inside of myself  against my flesh to figure out who I am in the Ministry and even in my personal life. I’m confused and lost. Who Am I God? That you still anoint me when I’m called upon? Who Am I that you would still seek to use me even with this strife within me?

I wanna serve God, that’s the bottom line. I’m a traditionalist and I believe in holding on to what our forefathers taught. I don’t want to let down or let go of our beliefs. I need God now more than ever to show me Who I Am.

Christmas is coming quick here at IBC, what does that mean? Indiana Bible College Christmas Banquet. It’s that dreaded time of the year where introverts like me want to curl up into a ball and hibernate the next month away. Walking through the hall this morning at IBC you’ll find a table set up in the Student Lobby with Christmas music playing. If you walk up toward the business lobby on the ramp there is a sock monkey ornament hanging from the ceiling with an envelope with a girl’s name on it. Why are these random things going on? It’s a young man’s way of singling a special young woman out to ask her to the banquet. See, for an introvert like me this is a terrible ordeal because we’d rather ask the girl in private so that if the rejection does come then it’s not public. As for me, no I don’t have a banquet date yet. I’m even debating whether I even want to go at this point. Will I survive this Christmas or will I be run over by the sleigh?

So, now I’ve spent my first day in classes at IBC. Been through the Job Fair and everything. I have mixed feelings at the moment but I’m sure everything will work itself out in time. Dorms are nice in part, the other part that’s bad is the shower in our dorm is broke. Yeah, definitely not what I call ideal for my first dorm experience, but for that matter it is a dorm, I guess that’s part of the experience.

So my classes are interesting also. So far I like my teachers, I like the subjects, and my heart is in the learning part. Must be completely honest I can definitely feel that I am away from home and that’s hard to do. I’ve been based out of home for so long and to go from that to being here away from everyone I know, love, and care for, it’s just hard.

But the calling of God is why I’m here and I’m going to attempt to fulfill that calling to become the best servant and minister for the kingdom that I can be. I covet each and every one of your prayers and thank you greatly for them.

IBC

So, I know I don’t post on this much but I figured I’d try… AGAIN… to start posting more. Just wanted to update anyone out there in blog land that might possibly be reading this that I’m about to step into a new aspect of my life. Begin a new Journey if you will. My life will change on January 8th for sure. How exactly this will effect the rest of my life yet, I’m not sure. The fact that it will effect the rest of my life and the rest of my ministry is for sure though. More »

So as you already know, we’re in a new year. 2010. The first thing that comes to my mind thinking about this new season is, what is this year going to bring? Is it going to be the same as 2009? Is it going to open some doors that I’ve been dreaming about? Or am I going to have to wait longer to see those doors open. I was thinking all these things and more. I was also thinking about the move of God that our  church has been prophesied to about. Our youth group, what does this new year have in store for them? Well my inspiration came when I stumbled across some lyrics to a song on a friends Facebook page. They said this.

It’s a new season, it’s a new day.
A fresh anointing is flowing my way.
It’s a season of power and prosperity.
It’s a new season coming to me. More »

The truth that there is power in unity is irrefutable. You can look through history, any great movement that’s ever taken place has been by a group of people who all wanted the same thing and come together in unity to accomplish it. More than ever before it is crucial that our churches become unified in the single goal to win souls. We’re living in a day where there is numerous denominations and religions. There’s more separation in the Christian church then there ever has been. You can find churches splitting from their organization on a continuous basis because of a small disagreement that isn’t even a salvation issue. More and more children are growing up in single parent homes or in home with step parents. This is not what God wanted for his children.

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So I’ve been meaning to do this for quite some time now. I’ve moved my blog to another site, and I’ve switched to WordPress.org . I must admit that I am extremely pleased with how this is set up and the simplicity of editing post. I hope that all of you will continue to read my blog even though I have moved it to a new site and changed it’s name.

With new improvements comes the inevitable desire and pleasure of more updates. The choices spoken up in the previous post have been made and life is moving forward in the calling of God. It’s truly amazing how much God will work in our lives if we will just allow him to do so. Just because choices are made once does not mean that we must not continue steadfast in prayer and fasting though.  I pray that God will use me to touch lives through these simple writings. The desire to be a willing vessle will not go unnoticed by God. But I was thinking about something today that really hit me hard in the heart. God’s word tells us ‘despise not the day of small things.’ That should be in the heart of all young ministers, including myself. This may be a small thing, but I pray God will use it to touch lives. God bless you all, yours in Christ, James Mitchell.

Sometimes we find ourselves at a crossroad in our lives that we’ve
came to before. The tricky part of this situation is do you take the
road you traveled before or do you take a new path?

You see, I am at that crossroads and I desperatly need to make a decision. But I don’t want to step out of the will of God. So if you guys could help pray an mention to God to help me make this decision then I would greatly appretiate it!

So I’m doing laundry tonight and I decided to sit down and I had music playing for the past few hours on the computer before I sat down, so I sat down and put my headphones on and the song I hear is “Blessed Be Your Name.” I suddenly felt the urge to write, what is in a name anyway? What’s so big about the name? What’s so special? How come we stress the name so much? More »